good web hosting provider?

since i'm now embarking on a new journey into the online world..well..it's quite a big leap..and its a big dream..for me..so i would like to start with a good web hosting..for my soon-to-be 'side income'..haha..it sounds really daunting..but i will do my best..to at least get myself a caldina..hehe [dreams..dreams..dreams..]

there are a lot of webhosting nowadays..too many to be frank..even i had quite a hard time choosing what's best for me..after putting a lot of thoughts..well for me..as a slightly-advanced-intermediate-webbie [web designing-or-the-likes newbie]..there are a few points i want to consider..and i'm sharing them with you..here..

oh..by the way i'm talking about a paid web hosting..not the free ones..why?

• free web hosting providers may and can put advertisements on your website, it's their source of income, and since you're using their service for free, they will put advertisements on your website so you can continue hosting with them for free..it's like a win-win situation la..sort of..got it?
• although free web hosting providers offers a variety of temptalicious web designs using their personal web site builder tool, it may be just that..it's good for beginners..but as i said before..i'm a slightly-advanced-intermediate-webbie..so i'll need more..more flexibility in the web designs..cause i might want to expand it..or customize it to the details of a pixel [i'm hard to please]
• bandwith..now this is one big issue with some free web hosting provider..ever tried accessing a website only to get a message saying 'This Site Has Exceeded Its Daily Bandwith Limit, Please Check Back Tomorrow'? it really frustrates me..especially when i came back the next day only to get the same message..again! i believe you understand that..next!
• hosting space..hurmm..actually its not quite a deal..but still its a deal..you'll need space to put pictures..or videos..if you have them..and in my case..i need space for autoresponder emails..well..this one is up to you..

well..i think that's that for free web hosting..on to the paid ones..
after digging for some info on the web with incik Google..the following are my consideration for choosing a paid web hosting provider..mind you..this is entirely my way of consideration..:

1. Uptime Guarantee - i want my site to be available on the web 24/7 [eventhough its not that updated] so i will look at the uptime guarantee claimed..it is recommended to look for the minimum 99% uptime..however even 99% is too low..it should be 99.5% or higher..usually the uptime guarantee is displayed on the homepage of the hosting provider..look for it..hard
   
2. Traffic/Bandwith - this is actually the maximum amount of data transfered from my site to visitors when they visit my website..you see..everytime a visitor visits your website, they will be downloading all the files of your website into a temporary storage on their computer so it can be displayed on their web browser..so the bandwith limit actually defines how much visitors you can have for the day..based on how big the files are on your website too..so if you're planning to have a website that host files..you'll have to get a hosting that offers a higher bandwith limit..for me..30GB-50GB per month wud be just nice..
3. Hosting Platform - usually providers provide two types of platforms, Windows or Linux..if you want to use PHP and MySQL better go for Linux platform..however if you are planning on using ASP or whatever that is .NET..pick the Windows platform hosting..also take note of the services and tools provided, such as databases (MySQL, MSSQL, etc)..if you wish to use CMS like Joomla or Drupal or others..you must choose a hosting that provides database..
4. File Management - i want the management of my web files to be as easy as possible..FTP access would be good so i can manage my files even more efficiently..
   
5. Technical Support - if anything happens to my site..i'd look for them..so i would want a provider that could give me support 24/7..[wah..bunyik macam serius jek!]
6. Hosting Space - hmm..normally websites files does not exceed 1GB..but if i get more space for a good price..why not? i could use it to store other stuff i might want to share somewhere else on the web..
   

hmmm..so basically that's that..i don't want to make it too technical..coz i'll be dazed trying to write all those techie stuf..its a stuff that i can only understand in my head..not in writing..feel free to comment if you think i should consider more points..i'd appreciate it much!

for your information, i got my inspiration from the following links..
http://webhostinggeeks.com/articles/How_to_Choose_the_Best_Web_Hosting_Service.html
http://www.thesitewizard.com/archive/findhost.shtml

thanx!

it fits me !

huhuhu..somehow this song fits me..

enjoy!

The Show - Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone..I've tried
And I don't know why..

Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop!
Cause it's too much, yeah, its a LOT to be something I'm NOT
I'm just a fool out of of love
Cause I just can't get enough..

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone..I've tried
And I don't know why..

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down..I know..
I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show..

The sun is hot, in the sky
Just like a giant spotlight..
The people follow the signs and synchronize in time
It's a joke nobody knows
They've got a ticket to the show

Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone..I've tried
And I don't know why..

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down..I know..
I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show..

Just enjoy the show, just enjoy the show..

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone..I've tried
And I don't know why..

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down..I know..
I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show..

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show..

dudum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show..

I want my money back,
I want my money back,
I want my money back..

Just enjoy the show..


I want my money back,
I want my money back,
I want my money back..

Just enjoy the show..


huhu..its all about the show..a really nice song..and comforting one for me..

'handmade' video clip?

i love this videoclip..looks like its handmade..huhu..but i can't embed it here..please do watch it!



Lenka - The Show

.hope.

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

The greatest fan of your life.
...greatest fan of your life.

batik..

after being nagged by oka-chan to get out of my fortress to have lunch at the Tasik Raban Restaurant..
we went to the stadium to see what the 1Malaysia exhibit has to offer..
it was a hot day..and almost nothing interest me..
which makes me want to return to my fortress even more..
then we went into the building..
there were batik drawing exhibition..
i've been longing to at least colour a batik painting myself..
a bit hesitant at first..but oto-chan said..
"kamu nak buat..buatla..abah bayarkan.."
sedikit sayu di situ..
mungkin oto-chan tahu hati atashi yang remuk redam ni..
well..i did forced myself to approach the sister at the stall..
and got myself this..
it took me a while..to get used to the brushes..
and oka-chan was complaining over the colours i chose..
nevermind that..
i was just following my heart..
oto-chan was very patient..waiting for me..
i coloured till the stall closes for lunch..
they asked me to leave the painting there to dry..
oto-chan said "takpe..kite minum dulu.."..
we had chendol at the nearby stalls..
then i picked up the painting..
played with some antique stuff on display..
the antique cash register machine caught my attention for a few minutes..
and back at home..is the finished product..
somehow..it looked unfinished..
incomplete like me..
though i like the outcome..
but nothing in the world is perfect..
thank you oto-chan..for this lovely painting..

to me..and to you...

Since I've been watching reruns of Meitantei Conan recently..i caught this song..thou the translation is a bit strange..i'd like to dedicate it to the lovely grass..and myself..
please note that the song is in Japanese..[obviously..huhu]..the English translation is in italics..

kimi to boku to ha betsu no ikimono dakara
konomi ga chigau aruku hayasa mo omoi no tsutae kata mo

you and I are two different creatures, therefore
the things we like, how fast we walk, and the way we think

iroaseteyuki
futari no kioku no naka ima bokura ha
tesaguri dakedo
hoka no dareka wo mirai wo sagashite yuku

are different
everything fades,
and now, within our memories
we are searching for a new future

omou yori tsuyoku ikite
tokubetsu na ai motometeru
shitatakana hibi ni nayandari

rather than thinking, you should live strongly
and search for a special person to love
don't worry for a sound life...

mou nido do mayowanai you ni
so no ude wo hanasanaide
kizutsuke au sono toki mo

never again will I be lost
don't let go of my hand
or hurt me this time

tada zutto kotae wo sagashite
mayoi konda toki no naka de
tsugi no basho he you take your way

just simply search for the answers
in this time so filled with hesitation
to the place that follows, You take your way...

me ni utsuru mono
te ni furetari kanjiru mono
sore ga bokura no sekai no subete
donna ni yume wo mite mo

that which appears in your eyes
that which you can touch and feel
those are the things that everyone
in our world dreams about

osanaki hibi no
ryoute ni afureteita chisana a pebble
dare ni mo mienai
takara no you ni kagayaita toki no naka de

in the days of our youth
our hands overflowed with those tiny pebbles
like the treasures that are invisible
within people when they shine

ki ga tsukeba motometeite
onnaji janai ai surechagau
katachi no nai mono ni kogarete
true heart for mystery eyes

if you happen realize while you are searching
that love changes as it passes you by
and you long for something you cannot touch
True Heart for Mystery Eyes

umi no mieru machi he yukou yo
kimi dake ni meta ano hi wo
sasoidashite tsuretkite

let's go to a town where we can look at the sea
but you were all I could see that day
when I took you there...

dokomade mo hirogaru sora no
subete ha mou mienai keredo
tsugi no basho he you take your way

but even so, we will never be able to see
to the end of where the endless sky will spread her wings
to the place that follows You take your way...

dakishimete
I'd like to be in your love

hold me
I'd like to be in your love

mou nido to mayowanai you ni
sono ude wo hanasanai de
kizutsuke au sono toki mo

never again will I be lost
don't let go of my hand
or hurt me this time

tada zutto kotae wo sagashite
mayoi konda toki no naka de
tsugi no basho he you take your way

just simply search for the answers
in this time so filled with hesitation
to the place that follows, You take your way...

mitsuyakani
kurikaeshiteyuki
mayoi no naka
I feel so all in secret life

silently
let's say it again
as we both waver
I feel so all in secret life...

i'm dropping it..

yup..i'm dropping my masters..

i am running out of time..my project is not even halfway done..
and i can't focus either..since 2008 to be exact..aiyyaaa

all the things that happens to me lately really got me shaken..
this is one thing i'm doing to help myself..
really big help from headaches and financially..
i can't go on with my studies..
and i hope..
this is one thing i can do to close the gap between us..

i've been contemplating long enough..
i should do it now..

abah and mak..
please forgive me..
i can't continue studying anymore..
i don't want to lose...that grass...

thinking of it..what are the differences having Master's Degree make?
a higher salary?
we can make money from other source if we want to..kan?
and the more i think of it..
being in IT stream..your education level does not matter..
what matters is your IT skills..
even if i have a Master's Degree..
but i don't know a single thing about basic IT mechanics..
it won't make me a good IT person at all..
and people would say like..
"duhhh..nama je ade Master..tapi basic haram tatau.."
make sense kan?
well..that's what i got from my grey noodles..
i might as well go for professional certification like CCNA CCNP or whatever..
that is more recognised in the IT world..

atashi and the lovely grass

huhu..lovely grass eh..
unfortunately all the lovely grass i have will eventually dissappear from me..
was it because i didn't hold them tight enuff?
or was it because i hold them too tight until they withered and die in my hands?
love comes..love goes..
but it hurts most when i don't know whether i can find the same lovely grass again..
but every grass is different..
i should have known..
should i stay..or should i go..
if i go..will i find a grass that will show me the way to the light like the last one?
i'm not perfect..i lack everything..
yet i don't want to stay in the dark..
still wondering..still hoping..

dear grass..could you stay and show me they way to the light?
if you don't..i understand..
i'm not perfect..for a lovely grass like you..

this broken heart..i don't know when will it mend..
huhh..when it happens..i wish i could just disappear..
*poof!* into the thin air..but life is not as simple as that..
nowhere to go..nowhere to turn to..nowhere to hide..
longing for nothing but for another half..
desperate kah? no..its just me..
i care not for wealth..i care not for the world..
ape nak jadi..jadila..
its just the uncomplete me..

Majlis Jamuan Aidilfitri

My family will be organizing a makan-makan event this coming Saturday, 3rd Octover 2009 (14 Syawal 1430H)..I would like to invite all of you who are reading this post to my house as per invitation below..well..its my parent's house..

Salam Syawal 1430H

I hope its not too late..
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..
Maaf Zahir & Batin..

please do forgive my mistakes..my extremeness..my everything..

to be frank..I am so not in the mood for writing for the past few months..hope that explains it..

Kisah Rumput dan Sayang

Since blog ni dah lama tak update..ala-ala usang gitu..wahaha..kasi fresh sket..tapi takla fresh sangat..

Hari ni atashi berminat nak share dengan anata-tachi pasal kisah ni..it was from my old blog..for me..citer ni sangat relevan dengan cinta dan kasih sayang..

dan jugak didedikasikan kepada orang yang merimaskan atashi..trimas bebanyak..sila amek iktibar citer ni ye...

Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah menengah, ada seorang pelajar bertanya pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang menyentuh mengenai kasih dan sayang secara am. Dialog di antara pelajar dan guru tersebut berbunyi begini :

Pelajar : Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik sebagai orang paling kita sayang? Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak berkekalan?

Cikgu : Oh, awak nak tahu ke?Emmm...baiklah, sekarang kamu buat apa yang saya suruh. Ikut je ye...mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya.

Pelajar : Baiklah...apa yang saya harus buat?

Cikgu : Kamu pergi ke padang sekolah yang berada di luar kelas sekarang juga. Kamu berjalan di atas rumput disitu dan sambil memandang rumput didepan kamu, pilih mana yang PALING cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi walaupun sekali. Dan kamu petiklah rumput yang PALING cantik yang beradadi depan kamu tersebut dan selepas itubawa balik ke kelas.

Pelajar : Ok. Saya pergi sekarang dan buat apa yang cikgu suruh.

Apabila pelajar tersebut balik semula ke kelas, tiada pun rumput yang berada di tangannya. Maka cikgu pun bertanya kepada pelajar tersebut.

Cikgu : Mana rumput yang cikgu suruh petik?

Pelajar : Oh, tadi saya berjalan diatas rumput dan sambil memandang rumput yang berada di situ, saya carilah rumput yang paling cantik.Memang ada banyak yang cantik tapi cikgu kata petik yang paling cantik maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depans ambil mencari yang paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Tapi sampai di penghujung padang , saya takjumpa pun yang paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yang di belakang saya sebelum itu tapi dah cikgu cakap tak boleh menoleh ke belakang semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yang saya boleh petik.

Cikgu : Ya, itulah jawapannya. Maknanya, apabila kita telah berjumpa dengan seseorang yang kita sayang, janganlah kita hendak mencari lagi yang lebih baik daripada itu. Kita patut hargai orang yang berada didepan kita sebaik-baiknya. Janganlahkita menoleh ke belakang lagi kerana yang berlaku tetap dah berlaku. Dan semoga yang berlalu tidak lagi berulang. Jika kita berselisih faham dengan orang yang kita sayang itu, kita boleh perbetulkan keadaan dan cuba teruskan perhubungan tersebut walaupun banyak perkara yang menggugat perhubungan tersebut. Dan ingatlah orang yang kita sayang itulah kita jumpa paling cantik dan paling baik pada MULAnya walaupun nak ikutkan banyak lagi yang cantik dan baik seperti rumput tadi. KECUALILAH jika perhubungan tersebut tak boleh diselamatkan lagi, maka barulah kita mulakan sekali lagi. Maka sayangilah orang yang berada di depan kita dengan tulus dan ikhlas.



SO..ade pape bantahan??

Objection overruled! haha..
snarnye dah ngantuk..

oyasumi minna~

letih

this weekend is one of the stressful weekend i'm always having..my room is upside down..i've been away to kl for the whole week..sangat tak terurus..sebenarnya sangat stress sebab terasa tak puas hati dengan diri sendiri yang telah membuat suatu keputusan yang...entahlaaaaaaa..dan juge banyak lagi perkara lain yang mengkacau ganggu jiwa yang sememangnye kacau ini..urghhh..i feel like rolling on the floor the whole day..[apekah??]..

dah la begitu..incik abg pun sangatla busy..jadi atashi tiada tempat untuk mengadu..yelah..semenjak ada dia..haruslah mengadu pada dia kan?? ataupun boleh mengadu pada orang lain..boleh tak??

oh..perasaan yang sungguh gloomy..huhh..susahnya mempunyai perasaan nih..sangat lonely walaupun mempunyai ramai teman di sisi..rasa seperti mau single sampai bila-bila..tak mahu pening-pening macam ni dan berangan tahapehape..tapi telah ditakutkan oleh incik itu dengan ayat-ayat seperti.."nisya..ko tak pikir ke nanti..ko dah tua esok..lepak dengan orang muda..tak rasa malu ke nanti.."..hah..sebenarnye membuatkan atashi terfikir..adakah atashi takut itu?? well..bukan dia je yang cakap gitu..ada jugak senior atashi di ofis berkata demikian..hmmm

itu salah satu je kekacauan jiwa..tipula kalo tak ade di kalangan anata-tachi yang tak pernah ade perasaan gitu..kan??

aaaa..pening!!!

and boleh tak..wahai pemandu-pemandu malaysia..tolong jangan duduk lane kanan kalo anda mahu memandu pada kelajuan 60KMH..SAKET JIWA OK?!! dan membuatkan atashi cenderung untuk menyondol anata-tachi kalo kasaketan jiwa itu tak dapat dibendung lagi..


mekaceh..

An Arrangement of Love Story by Jon Schmidt

sangat best ok..sangat best..
hanya itu yang termampu..huuu

..friendship..

..somehow this word doesn't mean much to me nowadays..
..the feeling sucks..
..$&@%#&..

it's whether i'm really feeling this..
or it's just my PMS..



oh well nisya-chan..
..at least you're not running from the past..
get your chin up..and face the future..
who knows..it might be brighter..

arghh..but then..
i've always tried to look at the brighter side of things..
and often..i found myself wondering whther they're bright enough for me...

i don't wanna grow up..huuuu

Intan Nuraini - Tak Mungkin Berpaling

Saat cinta bicara, aku tak kuasa
tuk bisa jauh dari dirinya

Sejak membuka mata hingga malam tiba
kulihat hanya bayang dirinya

Jangankan selingkuh, pikirkan yang lain
sejenak pisah tak mampu...

Rindu ini menjerat sangat kuat sayang..
Kau begitu memikat setiap saat sayang..

haha..lagu jiwang gile..
but atashi sangat suka lagu ni..
it was a soundtrack dalam citer Obsesi TV3..

Facebook Quiz: Rahsia Tulisan

Bentuk Kecondongan:- Condong ke kanan - Orangnya bersikap terbuka sama ada dalam pergaulan biasa atau hubungan cinta. Namun dia ini juga sentiasa memerlukan bantuan dan tunjuk ajar daripada orang lain dalam apa juga yang dilakukannya. Dalam erti kata lain, mereka ini kurang yakin dengan tindakan yang diambil dan memerlukan pendapat dan pandangan orang lain untuk menyakinkan diri mereka sendiri. Mereka juga mudah ditimpa perasaan cepat bosan jadi sebab itu cukup pantang kalau mereka kena tunggu lama!

Saiz Tulisan:- Kecil - Bentuk tulisan kecil ini menandakan dia seorang yang berfikiran jauh dan bersikap akademik. Selain itu dia juga sebenarnya seorang yang sensitif dan mudah tersentuh jiwanya.

hmm..well..i do lack self confidence..imouto-chan [she's a counsellor] also confirmed that i am not a motivated person..huhu..and its not that easy to motivate me..huhuhu..

sometimes..i wonder..when will i get to know the real Nisya-chan Ismail..

award from che Izan..

huhu..terima kasih tidak terhingga kepada che izan PTM MDTM kerana sudi memberikan award ni kepada atashi..sungguh terharu..maaf kerana mengambil masa yang terlalu lama untuk meng'claim'nye..hohoho


kepada siapakah harus dianugerahkan award ini..?



atashi anugerahkan kepada anata-tachi ye??
sila ambil!

hari ni hari jumaat

oohhh..lama gile tak update..

snarnye ade je dalam tuh dah 2-3 post yang panjang2..dan juga gambar-gambar..tetapi tak terpublish sbb tersangat allergic nak duduk depan pc lelama..tataula apasal..huu..harap bersabar ye..kerja banyak..tetapi sangat malas..asek nak procrastinate je..huhh amat bahaya..dan masih stress..huuuuuuu

ingat mau sambung la jugak post-post itu..skali teringat plak gambar-gambar sume kat umah..jadi terpaksala ditangguhkan lagi niat di hati..huhu..hari ni hari jumaat..jadi adalah sikit free untuk moncorat coret..walopun atashi ingin mencoret yang lain..tapi tadi adalah sedikit annoyed sebab semua org tiada di pejabat..ye..hari ni hari jumaat..terlalu khusyuk barangkali..[oh rasa nak muntah]

jadi..apa yang patut dilakukan di kelapangan ini?
oh tidak..atashi memang tidak akan pulang ke rumah pada hari jumaat..rehat adalah selama 2 jam stengah..perjalanan pulang sudah mengambil masa stengah jam..begitu juga perjalanan ke pejabat..sudah membazir satu jam di situ..
tido di surau..errmm..ramai yang suka tido di surau..tidak privacy gitukan..lagipun surau bukanlah tempat tido!
tido di bilik? mungkin..sangat seronok tido di bawah meja ini..sangat privacy..tiada siapa pun yang tahu..[tapi sekarang sume orang pun tahu..]

ahh..minggu depan adalah minggu sibuk..imouto-chan bakal masuk matriks kuala pilah isnin ni..seharusnya atashi mengambil cuti untuk menghantar adek terchenta itu kan..[sekali gus menjadi driver oka-chan kerana oto-chan tidak akan pulang minggu ini..haih..haruslah berdikari kerana tiada lagi orang suruhan di rumah]..diikuti dengan lawatan pemantauan keesokan harinya..minit Dato' "PTM, sila uruskan persiapan. saya akan hadir..."..pengurusan sememangnya memeningkan! makan - checked..taklimat - in progress..aturcara - bedal jela..

hmm..mungkin order makanan perlu ditambah sikit?..huu..
pembersihan data..masih terdapat beberapa ratus pegangan perlu disemak..diselang seli dengan permasalahan lain..haih..kenapalah...mungkin perlu restart server petang ni..kerana sistem sudah pening?
justeru..atashi ingin menyambung menyemak data pegangan..


ah..petang ni perlu pergi bayar saman..

sutoressu

atashi paling tak suka orang yang suka amik mudah bila melakukan sesuatu pekerjaan..
ye..memang bagus nak siapkan kerja cepat..taaaaapi tak bagus bila mengabaikan perkara-perkara yang sepatutnya diteliti terlebih dahulu..

young man..[ni budak praktikal atashi ni]..hidup ni jauh lagi..jangan tergopoh-gopoh..nanti mengundang padah pada diri sendiri..

take it from someone who have been there..done that..and make it one hell of a lesson in your life for not following orders..atashi tak marah betul2 lagi tadi..


and bercakap pasal nih..atashi terfikir perbualan dengan rakan sejawatan..yelah..pasal staf gomen ni lah..kalo yang dah senior tu..langsung tak boleh nak hormat pada mereka yang berpangkat lebih tinggi..memang lah tak semua..tapi pekerjaan itu satu tanggung jawab..masa kita mula-mula sain Surat Akujanji tuh dah kira mula menerima segala tanggungjawab yang diamanahkan oleh pihak atasan..tak buat maksudnye tak amanah la kan??


tu satu hal..tuding-menuding tu biasa..tapi masing-masing kena tahula tanggung jawab masing-masing kan..dalam kes atashi tadi..i had to be responsible..sebab yang buat kesilapan tu anak buah atashi..lagi tinggi pangkat..lagi banyak tanggungjawab..mati boss kalo dapat staf yang buat kerja lepas tangan..tak dengar cakap semua nih..


rakyat..orang awam..public..rata-rata memandang rendah pada kerajaan..mesti selalukan dengar ayat camnih.."alaa..gomen..biasala.."..kadang-kadang sebagus mana pun Ketua Jabatan tuh..kalau dapat orang bawahan yang tak bertanggung jawab..hancur gak..ni atashi yang tengok sendiri..yang lagi sedih..kebanyakan yang buat hal macam tu kaum sendiri..tapi tak semua..

atashi puji sangat staf-staf yang sangat menitikberatkan ketelitian dalam melaksanakan tugas memasing..memang atashi appreciate sesangat lah..lagi banyak tanya..lagi atashi suka..sekurang-kurangnya atashi tahu diorg wat kerja..tul tak?


alangkah bagusnya kalo mereka yang berada di zon selesa tu sedar..betapa la dunia luar tu sangat memerlukan mekanisme penyampaian kerajaan yang berkesan..apakah itu?? ya..itulah anda..termasuk atashi..yang bergelar penjawat awam nih..mungkin JPA should consider suatu skim perkhidmatan yang akan membuatkan penjawat awam bekerja dengan bersungguh-sungguh..tapi tu lah kan..selagi tak sedar tanggungjawab..

takdo maknonyo

KISS - Because I'm a Girl

**tengah layan sunyi nih..tetibe teringat sms en.BH pasal clip lagu nih..so after years..atashi tengok semula clip tu..oh yes..still make me sebak..dan atashi baru tahu lagu nih ade english version..sebagai insan bergelar perempuan..atashi berpendapat lirik lagu ini sangat betul..huhu.. enjoy!**



**notice that the video above is the original korean version with english subtitles..below is the lyrics of english version of the song..NOT the subtitles in the video above..cheers**


I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

(REFRAIN)
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa


(CHORUS)
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl


You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free


(REFRAIN)
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS)
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

(CHORUS)
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

(CHORUS)
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

aiyaaa

di manakah IMeem???

..fuwa-fuwa..

** this post is relating my current 'life form' with this song..though tak banyak sangat yang atashi nak huraikan because this song is kinda straightforward la jugak..**



Misha Omar - Jawapanmu

kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri
(huhu..lately..yes..)
ku tahu apa sebalik senyuman itulah yang ku mahu
jawapan dari kamu

aku selalu terkenangkan kamu
bila kamu jauh dari diriku kamu selalu yang ku rindu
(dulu tak..sekarang ade laa..sket)
jawapan rinduku kamu

terleka bila berbicara denganmu
(hoho..this is so true..beratus bil atashi bulan nih..T-T)
pastiku terbang tinggi ke awan biru
bermain dengan kata-kata
dari bibirmu itulah mimpiku selalu

kerap kali kau muncul di ruang minda
duniaku kini kian sempurna
(biasa biasa aje..)
bilaku terjaga kau di depan mata
(nih belum lagi ye..)
katakan saja apa yang di rasa
hoooohhh...

kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri
ku tahu apa sebalik senyuman itulah yang ku mahu
jawapan dari kamu

aku selalu terkenangkan kamu
bila kamu jauh dari diriku kamu selalu yang ku rindu
jawapan rinduku kamu

nyata berbeza cara kau berbicara
ku terasa diriku istimewa
mahuku bertanya tapi ku tak berdaya
(hmm..dah tanya dah..)
dah ku dekat denganmu kelu lidah membisu
(yang nih tak try lagi..we'll see..)

masih lagi ku tercari-cari
dari mimpi ke mimpi hari ke hari
nyata mulanya dari kamu
katakan saja apa yang di rasa
oooohhh...

kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri
ku tahu apa sebalik senyuman itulah yang ku mahu
jawapan dari kamu

aku selalu terkenangkan kamu
bila kamu jauh dari diriku kamu selalu yang ku rindu
jawapan rinduku kamu

selalu aku mendoakan
agar kita disatukan
dan kita akan
ke akhirnya
(amin...)
hooo.. wo wooo...

kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri
ku tahu apa sebalik senyuman itulah yang ku mahu
jawapan dari kamu

apa yang kau mahu
itu yang ku mahu
janganlah kau pergi
tinggalku sendiri
ku cari jawapan pasti

kamu..
kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri

**some things happened without expectation..susah nak digambarkan betapa pelik-peliknya perasaan atashi sekarang nih..well..i'm the one who used to do all the daydreaming and berangan thingy..nih atashi tak sempat berangan lagi dia dah berangan dulu dah..huhh..tak leh jadi nihh..sangat pelik..

so kronologi perasaan atashi lebih kurang adalah seperti berikut:
>>>> > > ...??
yes..it has been twice the heart attack..two weeks ago and this morning..sblom ni ade jugak minor heart attack..i'm wondering what will come next in the future..huhu..oh well..it seems that he never fails to surprise me..[yet]..oh..and he really enjoys abusing my gullibility..kan dear? jahat! takper..takper..ade lori ade bas..

haih..susah snarnye nak describe what this feeling is..macam..fuwa-fuwa kind of thing..macam berendam dalam air suam yang best pun ade juge..

ahh..dah merepek..tapi i do like you lah..haha..hahaha..tapi atashi ini memeningkan! dan memeningkan diri sendiri juge..huu..tapi tu lah..

so..thank you dear..for popping up into my life unexpectedly..because of you..i get to dream once more..and its a better dream than the last one..because now i have a rival..[ye lah..sblom ni berangan sorang-sorang je kan..[walopun berdua..isk]..hoho]..kite tengok angan-angan sape lagi best..

so let's just enjoy the moment while it lasts..
[oh..atashi harap sangat it will last..tak larat dah..huuu..amiin]
oh..dah nak lupa..this song is dedicated for you~

rindu kah?